Perfection Seeker

13 June 2011

Promotion?

Promotion? No promotion?
Why can't i feel the differences?
If you ask me whether i'm happy abt it, hmm not really.
If you ask me whether i'm unhappy abt it, not really.

When A told me this piece of gd news, my heart sung.
Are we going to use "that way" again? Not surprising, yet another disappointment.
Why? The reasons go on and on.

The feeling is different when i was promoted to JAD back then.. it was totally different because i could feel the appreciation but not this time round. Shouldn't you make it official?

I had a chat with my good colleague, rather a friend in the company whom we often share views together. She was knocking some senses into me on our way home and i was like.. awaken by it. I think it's time to do something. I can't let him take advantage of me all the time just because i'm easy going? (Not that kind of advantage u r thinking of, btw he's a gay). He is just taking me for granted and i think i need to stop this.

I know some ppl are just waiting for things to happen. Waiting for me to be the scapegoat, to be the 1st to walk into the Tiger's cave. And the Tiger is too afraid of us and so he always ordered his subordinates to tell us. This pig (i think he's born in the yr of a pig) is always hiding behind the entrance, rather hiding behind me as well. Why are you always "pulling my back legs" (literally translated from chinese saying and it sounds funny). If i don't go in, when will i be able to stop this? It can go on and on.

We've worked out a good strategy to achieve what i want. Not in a bad way..i know it sounds like i'm habouring some evil thoughts but trust me, it's not.. i'm just trying to get the benefits i deserve.

While tweeting just now, i can feel my heart throbbing.
I think tmr is gonna be even worst.. would be equivalent to my Traffic Police test.
Wish me luck, im gonna be nervous.
Stay tuned~

(Your Name) ♥ 8:26 PM